This is my first time being so dedicated to anything in my life. I've never ever EVER, studied this much, and it's really hard. Sometimes I think I'm losing my mind or losing touch with reality because even when I'm showering, eating, sleeping, relaxing, watching TV, anything really I am thinking about medicine. I'm reviewing drug mechanisms of action, or thinking about what type of virus causes the flu, or what the translocations are for certain cancers. It's kind of sick, when you think about it.
I had to just take a few days off, and try to get medicine off of my mind because I thought I would be lost for good if I didn't. I still thought about it everyday, but much less than the usual nonstop thinking about it from 6am to 11pm, like usual.
I'm going back at it tomorrow after three days off, and hopefully I'll be able to detach and let go this time when I'm supposed to like during sleep and meals. I don't want to dream about biochemistry anymore or analyze muscle groups while I'm watching the olympics. I just want to be a normal person!
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